Ok, so tomorrow I am guest posting over at www.ilovedevotionals.com and for the last week I kept thinking I am writing a guest post and I haven’t posted on my blog since last year.
Bottom line is God didn’t finish His work in me, He didn’t quit leading me, and my desire to share what He has taught me didn’t fade……I’ve just been paralyzed or distracted….. Again! But for the last week the following has been on my heart to share, so here it goes…
This is a picture of me and my boys that I posted last week for Throwback Thursday on Facebook. It is one of my favorite pictures for several reasons, one of which is because if I had a rewind button I would love to go back to that very moment in time.
I look at that picture and I see positives, like my face with fewer wrinkles and my hair that was actually colored by professional. I see my extremely observant, caring, worry wart so young and innocent and I see my little encourager full of joy and happiness. I have so many good memories from this trip!!
Sadly, I also know the negatives that aren’t seen in this picture. I remember the selfishness that was hidden inside me. I was a self centered mom with rottenness in my heart.
Honestly, I could give you a huge list of things I wish I knew then or things that I would have done differently but the ONE thing that would have ACTUALLY made a difference would have been if I had surrendered my life to Christ.
I knew about Jesus then…. but really know Him, not even close. I had no imaginable idea of what I was missing out on. I loved going to church when I was a little girl, truly loved it. I even met my husband at a church. But going to church and KNOWING Jesus don’t always go hand in hand. It is possible to have one without the other.
Jesus changed everything for me! EVERYTHING!! So now when you see me with wrinkles and gray roots that are long over do for coloring…. Smile and know I am no longer chained to appearances. Please don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with taking care of yourself and your appearance, but just like some things become addictions for some and not others; when I focus on my appearance, vain and selfish thoughts come more readily and I start focusing more on me and that is a road I don’t even want to look in the direction of again.