Your grace abounds in deepest waters!

Chance’s courage and the impact his story has on people never ceases to amaze me, and to me that shouts exactly where that courage is really coming from… Jesus. Chance is one of the most perceptive people I know (a gift from above) and he can spot the one who is hurting in a crowd. Chance is more prone to walk towards people who are hurting, believing he can make a difference, than he is to turn away from them in fear of them negatively influencing him. As a mom, that is hard and that is where the enemy likes to creeps in to fill me with doubt and fear. I am humbled by that thought when I think about Mary and I can’t even imagine what she felt watching Jesus.

Chance has gone to a Bible college where he knew no one in a remote part of Colorado, an hour away from the nearest gas station and cell phone service. Chance has gone to Bible College in California where he knew no one again but had every convenience within his reach. Each of his semesters at Bible College have been some of the hardest times of his life and he has the scars to prove it, some are visible and some are not. And being honest, I misplaced my hope. My hope was that being at a Bible College would enhance Chance’s walk with the Lord, which is wrong. My hope should never be in a setting or a circumstance but in the Lord himself and the truth He has given to us. Chance has stumbled a lot in his walk with the Lord, but honestly who hasn’t? Who of us could cast that first stone? I used to get depressed when Chance would stumble because I listened to the lies of fear, doubt, and what-ifs. Now I watch and wait expectantly for the Lord’s glory each time he stumbles, because just as we are faithful to stumble, the Lord is faithful to pick us back up, dust us off and whisper “Let’s try this again”, no matter how many times it takes. He knew each day of our life and each mistake we would make before we took our first breath and yet here we are.

Today, I stand firm behind my son and his decision to stay in California all on his own. I have missed the majority of opportunities the Lord has given me to stand firm behind Chance, but not this one. Not because I am naïve and believe he won’t stumble again, but because I know Jesus is right there with him to help him back up when he does. He will be moving to his new home today, where he is renting a room with people I have never met. Yes, they could very well be a ‘bad influence’ for Chance BUT Chance could also be a ‘good influence’ for them, and really what would worrying about that do for me? Is the God I have faith in not bigger than this? For the God I have faith in, ALL things are possible. Nope, not gonna worry, not this time – not for this momma – been there, done that and got nowhere, FAST! Nope, instead I choose to put my hope in the Lord, to keep my eyes on HIM even if the worst storm ever builds around me and I stand amazed at the courage the Lord has given Chance to step on shaky ground where he knows he may fall, because I KNOW that come what may, the Lord NEVER FAILS, NEVER GIVES UP, and HIS GLORY will be seen.

Below are my favorite parts of the lyrics in the song above and these are the truths I cling to!
‘Your grace abounds in deepest waters, Your sovereign hand will be my guide. My feet may fail when fear surrounds me, You’ve never failed and You won’t start now – so I will call upon Your name and keep my eyes above the waves! Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the water wherever You would call me, take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my Savior. ‘

My hope is in the Lord and His glory is all around us if we open our eyes to see it.


Change is coming…

While reading in Jeremiah and Ecclesiastes this morning I was led to pray for my boys and my husband with boldness and confidence that my prayers and proclamations would be heard. My prayers would be heard because my heart was repentant. The plank had been removed from my eye! Without fear, I share my prayers and proclamations from my time at Papa’s feet ….
Lord, this morning I lift up my youngest son to You. Holy Spirit, guide this prayer of mine. I pray he learns early in this life what Solomon realized at the end of his. I pray he will not clutch at foolishness while seeking wisdom. I pray he will understand that obtaining everything men desire is meaningless apart from You! Papa, I pray he will know without doubt that true joy and pleasure are only found in You. I pray he will eat and drink the fruits of his labor and clearly understand and appreciate these fruits as gifts from You. I pray he works at everything he does as if he is working for You so that when fruits come he will KNOW WITHOUT DOUBT that he worked for You and the rewards are from You. I pray You will give him eyes to see early in his life that EVERYTHING apart from You is without meaning and joy and that pure satisfaction comes from You and NOTHING apart from You! I pray this understanding will be given to him while he is young so that his life will be spent in close, constant communication with You. I pray the dreams You have given him and for him will become clear at a young age and that he will be able to find satisfaction and fulfillment from living Your will for him. I pray with every breath he takes, the enemy will flee because Your power and will are present in his life. I pray You will bless him and keep him. I pray You will smile upon him and be gracious to him. I pray You will watch over him and give him peace. I pray he will spend each day of his life knowing without doubt my love for him and more importantly that he will see my love for him as a small sample of Your vast, all encompassing, unending, unconditional, never failing love for him. I thank you for my little hallelujah boy!!
I lift up my oldest to You, Papa. I thank You this morning and know You are at work restoring the years the locust have eaten in his life. He is so VERY precious to You and You know what an emotional hell he has lived thus far…. BUT, You Lord have begun the restoration. You will take both of our failures and struggles and use them to bring unimaginable beauty from them. Tears will flow from our eyes of awestruck amazement over Your love and grace. It is no longer a time to tear, but is now a time to mend. It is no longer a time to be quiet but is now a time to speak. It is no longer a time for war but is now a time for peace. It is no longer a time for chasing the wind, but a time of realization that true joy and satisfaction are ONLY found in You, Papa. Now is the time for what has happened before to happen again. Now is the time for Your light to shine, revealing Your glory. What was lost will now be found! What the enemy tried to destroy, You will restore for Your glory. What the enemy sought to tempt with, will no longer be a temptation because what was dirty has been made clean. The lies of condemnation will no longer be heard for there is no condemnation in Christ. Hope has come and it is in You, Jesus. You have prepared me fully to be blown away by the glory I am about to see so that when I see it and when others see it we will stand in awe and amazement at Your power alone to make what “seems” impossible, possible.
I boldly proclaim in Your name Jesus, that I will be Your hands and feet to my husband. I will be the wife he needs by following the Holy Spirit’s guidance. I will deny my flesh for it’s only purpose is to please my selfishness. Thank you Papa, for my husband. Thank You for eyes to see him for who You created him to be and I pray for strength in helping him see that person for himself. I pray my husband will receive the blessings that come from my time spent at Your feet. I pray he will experience You above and beyond anything he has ever seen or heard about You. I pray You ignite and set his heart ablaze to know You for himself, not what others have taught him about You. I pray he will set sail on the biggest adventure of his life… seeking You!! Why do I get giddy with excitement over him taking this adventure of seeking You for himself? Because WITHOUT DOUBT… I know it to be a proven fact and promise that when he seeks, he will find You! What was planted, will be harvested, as soon as the seed breaks through the shell that is hidden in darkness and searches, for himself, the Light that gives what is needed, leading to growth.

In Jesus’ Powerful Name I Pray,